whahaha.....MY EXAMS R OVER!!!!!!!......phew....1 yr pass by so fast.....nxt sem im gonna b yr 2 liao....more hiong den tis yr....haha.....mus work harder....felt tis yr quite slack...

well....today aft exam....went out to play dota....other den tt....i dun tink i hav much plans 4 the holi....other den the upcomin medic course...game trials....n FO camp n day tour....haiz....nobody to go out wif leh...pretty much a sianz holi.....n im tryin to make up 4 the boredness....but who do i turn to to go out wif? sianz....

well gtg liao...go play games....muahaha....

weeeee.....3 dwn 1 to go.....aft tt......im free......haha.....tis morn started out the day so sianz....cos i gt 2 freakin pprs on the same day....1st it was the ap chem....which is quite ok la....can pass can liao....den i gt 6 hrs to study 4 calculus....n the ppr turned out to b......ermmm easier den i xpected...all i studied 4 the past 6 hrs gt cum out sia....waahaa.....jus hope i can pass cos i last sem nearly fail....so tis sem i mus b better!

waahahaha....today n tml chiong playin liao....intend to study onli on sunday.....haha.....well gtg liao.....go wan le.....weeeee......

jus came back frm xtra cppa lesson...wha nw tired sia....wanted to zzz....but cant.....mus wake up....still gt revision ppr haven do....haha....

today lesson hah....ok lor....a lot of class cum together to becum 1 class...ask ques on revision ex....i the onli 1 frm my class....sobs....den tinwei came bout an hour into the lesson later....haha....at least gt sum company weeee.....

tinking bout the weekend.....i sure learnt sumthing.....tt is......to brush up my hokkien! cos hor...i went to my father brother's funeral on fri....den im the 'main character' cos he dun hav a son so its replaced by mi....den hav to do a lotta thing...n the priest keep telling mi wat to say in hokkien n im like there.... '???' ....lucky my dad bside mi if nt...i will b there huh-ing....haha....

well....the wkends nth much goin on acty....jus study study n study lor....haha....acty gt a bit of slacking watching tv using com playing games.....yeah la...so sum up is acty not a bit onli haha...

well...go zZz 1st....aft tt back to study....sianz....jus tahan another week den it will b ALL over muahaha......

haiz.....a yr has past since i been into SP.....n i mus say.....its been a bad yr 4 mi....y i say tt? shall bring u thru.....

i rmb the time when i came into SP all psyched up n ready 4 the yrs ahead....during the FO....saw nasir n cindy became papa n mama...n den the time i knew....i wanted to b a GL....to b able to lead n INTERACT wif the freshies....well....4 mths hav passed n its the end of a sem....thru tt sem i met a lotta frens....the downfall acty began when i'm @ the 2nd sem....dunno wat happen.....things jus went bad....frm bein the lowest in class 4 a few tests...to havin sum ppl changing of attitudes....its jus a sudden burst of events....den the turning pt of my life came @ AD n D....aft the whole event.....i realised.....tt it is hard being single....wif all the couples ard u....be it new or old....n its durin tis time where ppl tend to observe u n picked out ur weak pts....

den i wanna talked bout the fo n day tour meeting.... n wat do u no....i wasnt the GL....for both events.....n honestly....c-ing the GLs cum together to interact makes mi feel.....inferior.... jus like when i'm wif frens....they gt their own cliques to interact wif....n they made mi feel alone....which is the truth la....cos i realised tt i dun realli hav 'true' frens ard....sum1 who will b there when im reali down...n mi bein able to safely tell sum1 sumthin....without the fear of spreading.....

so im nw writing tis blog.....being a SAD (single n desperate)..... a person who is desperately AA (attract attn).... n alone.....wif no frens ard.... trying to improve my grades when im super lousy @ it....n tinking.....whether he shld or shld nt go to club to help out or do anything again....since wat he did....didnt came out wat he expected.... haiz....i guess i realli nd sum counselling or sumthing.....nw i dun realli lking fwrd to FO or day tour....cos it realli hurts mi to c ppl in my status tt im in.....

haiz....jus hope tt 2nd yr will b a better 1 den tis sem.....i realli hope.....

haiz.....a yr has past since i been into SP.....n i mus say.....its been a bad yr 4 mi....y i say tt? shall bring u thru.....

i rmb the time when i came into SP all psyched up n ready 4 the yrs ahead....during the FO....saw nasir n cindy became papa n mama...n den the time i knew....i wanted to b a GL....to b able to lead n INTERACT wif the freshies....well....4 mths hav passed n its the end of a sem....thru tt sem i met a lotta frens....the downfall acty began when i'm @ the 2nd sem....dunno wat happen.....things jus went bad....frm bein the lowest in class 4 a few tests...to havin sum ppl changing of attitudes....its jus a sudden burst of events....den the turning pt of my life came @ AD n D....aft the whole event.....i realised.....tt it is hard being single....wif all the couples ard u....be it new or old....n its durin tis time where ppl tend to observe u n picked out ur weak pts....

den i wanna talked bout the fo n day tour meeting.... n wat do u no....i wasnt the GL....for both events.....n honestly....c-ing the GLs cum together to interact makes mi feel.....inferior.... jus like when i'm wif frens....they gt their own cliques to interact wif....n they made mi feel alone....which is the truth la....cos i realised tt i dun realli hav 'true' frens ard....sum1 who will b there when im reali down...n mi bein able to safely tell sum1 sumthin....without the fear of spreading.....

so im nw writing tis blog.....being a SAD (single n desperate)..... a person who is desperately AA (attract attn).... n alone.....wif no frens ard.... trying to improve my grades when im super lousy @ it....n tinking.....whether he shld or shld nt go to club to help out or do anything again....since wat he did....didnt came out wat he expected.... haiz....i guess i realli nd sum counselling or sumthing.....nw i dun realli lking fwrd to FO or day tour....cos it realli hurts mi to c ppl in my status tt im in.....

haiz....jus hope tt 2nd yr will b a better 1 den tis sem.....i realli hope.....

today i am the backstage crew 4 the year 3 farewell party but b4 tis i had the day tour meeting to no our postings but b4 i talked bout it....shall talk bout the party 1st....

went to the audi to help out b4 i go 4 my gems bout half an hour....den came back to get prepared 4 the farewell party.....ha.....hav sum last min helpers to help mi out namely wanwei doreen yongzhen alven n arens....but unfortunately during the event i overestimated the no. of crew n left wanwei n doreen wif nth to do.....so paiseh once again....overall it was quite a fun job to do lor....haha....

b4 the event had a meeting to no our post...n in the end i gt the post of bein a GM.....kinda disappointed tho....the last meeting which is the FO camp meeting....annabel told mi tt im a medic....cos 4 this past yr.....i tot of bein a GL aft nasir n cindy (my papa n mama)....but wat happen a yr later? i kanna a post which is nt my 1st hope to b....n im tinking to myself.....aft all tt i hav done for the past yr.....y the results turned out to b so disappointing? is it cos of mi...of who i am? bein n irritatin bastard who wanted attn so much cos nbdy to talk wif when he nds sum1 to listen to? or isit of other factors tt even i cant alter or affect?

haiz....gt to tink bout it b4 my exams.....aft tt i can care less bout everythin n concentrate on my studies.....sianz.....tired.....nd a lotta rest....gt to catch the grammys tml morning....

hmmm....jus came back frm swissotel mechant court aft yest annual dinner n dance....overall i mus sae its a job well done....great job fang hui n choon long....haha....heres the lowdown on the event.....

well arrive @ the hotel to help deco @ 1.....den we r suppose to hang the backdrop but den dunno wat happen....den delay to put it up....but eventually put up lor...thereafter blow balloons buy lunch b4 we start the ushering in of the participants...den ard 730 they start the event....thereafter.....mi wanwei nasir jianyang waiseen peggy n june went to marina sq to makan...dam hungry....haha....den they go watch fireworks....nice nice...den we go back tt time they r selecting the mr devil n ms angel....thereafter its lucky draw n disco night lor....haha....after sum dance....mi went up to the hotel room n slack.....a lotta ppl inside....cant mention all haha....therafter....sum of us went to clarke quay to walk walk n talk talk....we settled @ tcc n chit chat.....den we go back to the hotel to talk....it is den tt i realise hw much i learnt frm my seniors....thereafter went back to the room....trying to slp but cant....so play tai tee.....in the dark....so we use our hp as a source of light....cos mos of the ppl in there r zZzing....haha....den we play until they all wake up n we checked out n went home liao lor.....

*yawnz* tts all i tink i hav to sae....super tired....haven been slping 4 more den 24 hrs....whaa.....buay tahan ah....so slp liao.....zZz.....