jus a small update....

doin my resume nw.... argh....horrid....jus cant tink of any freaking accomplishments tt i hav.... realli nt in the mindset of tinking anything nw....suppose to go watch 'the guardian' today....but sum of mi frens nt free....hav to wait till e-learning....but den...sum will b bz too during tt wk...haiyo....confusing....

sumtimes i wonder....if im realli tt useless or nt....onli no hw to listen to others instructions n nv realli take a step to ud y i do tis y i do tt....simple task oso cant do well....nt blaming any1....jus blaming myself....bout hw i was born into tis world being so dumb....n my memory....like words on a sand....can b rmbed.....but can b washed or blown away so easily....jus dun hav the storage ability...haiz....

is tis destiny......tt im jus bein....useless? =(

jus came back frm vivocity....went to watch 'death note'....a bit hesistant @ 1st....den in the end realise nv regret....haha veri nice movie....even tho im sitting @ the front row sides....most of the time seeing the subtitles...haha....but its nice....devil reminds mi of diablo druid shape shift to werewolf haha.....

phew....managed to catch last bus.....if nt...haha....i'll most prob go club or stay @ frens house? haha...cab so ex....midnight surcharge summore....lol....

saw sky park @ vivo today....big area....dam nice...a veri gd place to chill out...haha....n best place 4 mi to b alone @....jus the view n the area of it.....realli veri nice place.....mayb a substitute 4 rooftop esplanade mayb? i dunno....

nt realli in the right mindset to think nw...memory is realli fading mi....simple things i oso cant rmb.....even if its 4 a short moment....haiz....hw am i gonna survive tis way.....

oh btw....where can i get the pic of Ryuku, the God of Death in the movie 'Death Note'? haha....i wan his pic!

off to slp....gt notes to study tml....

woot...nw in sch....so sianz...still gt sum stupid talk later @ 3....n we dche ppl r compulsory....sianz....tink i gonna slp later or wat lor...

anyways....gt my mp3 yest...thanx meng suan...haha...nw i guess tts the onli thing tt can accompany mi thru all these times nw...jus recently feel so shag....everytime....haiz...jus no time to commit a lotta stuffs....

hmmm..nw mental block...realli cant tink much nw...havin prac tml....another day 4 mi too....

will all these ever end? n im still waiting.....

went to meet chun long charlotte n her fren qiqi to escape....lucky i meet them @ a later time...woke up late today....haiz....haha had fun....den aft tt wanted to go sakae to eat...den 4got no buffet...sianz...so wen to eat cavana....wha oso nt cheap....den aft tt they left 4 home....i went to meet joan zhiming waiyew tinwei amos n rueyming to cele joan n rueyming bday....we went surf n turf....wha lao....wanna cry sia the price....but the food is nice anyways....den aft tt went home....tts bout all 4 my days bah...

nw doin my tutorials....sianz....realli no time tml....still gt IC last meeting....den i dun tink will hav time lor...haha....

realli srry 4 the things i did to u....didnt no u will feel tt way....promise wont do it again....

haiz.....is the horoscope realli saying the truth? am i realli spending more tis wk? hmmmm....

finish lesson @ 4+.....den meet my sis n her fren winnie to go to vivocity....woot nice place....its as if im in malaysia....realli gt the feel....den went to buy bag....haha....hope my frens like it....den my sis bought clothes.....wha....she realli can shop....den went breeks makan den went home....

wha! spend too much money liao.....no gd....i still gt the wkend to survive.....sat gg out wif clsmates cele joann rueyming bday....sun gg out wif OC to eat....wha....i predicting all my $$ will b gone!....

jus came back home....haiz...so many things to do....i dunno....wkend is the onli time tt i feel...relax....y am i so tensed up all the time? confidence is the thing i lack....n its killing mi.....argh....

oh....4got to mention....my house is so dam messy rite nw!!! all the things all shifted cos they r painting my house....den had to find all my books in 1 stupid box....argh...hope it will end soon...

wats goin on wif my life? cant i hav jus a moment of utopia? jus a moment....?

haiz....haze has hit a record high of 150 today....woke up tis morning to c a blanket of fog covering my house skyline....tot i woke up in heaven....lol.....anyways went out today to....ermmm...haha....cannot reveal much....4 nw....

SP had a SP musical yest.....well...according to kelly....its a nice show....haha....i dunno....nv had the time to go....been bz since the start of sch....haiz....

all the reports....studies...tutorials n stress....cumin to mi liao....its happening again....but y am i still feel so slack? or am i compromising other ppl 4 myself? if its tt....den im dam selfish....argh....

gg out wif my siblings tml....long time since i do tt....but oh well...hope it will b an enjoyable 1....haha.....

when shld i give? i dunno....still deciding the right time.....

phew....back frm IC.....wet slope n nite walk....woot....nice....great job to the OC....but haiz....sumhw compromised my work....nw too tired to touch anything relating to studies....if nt i slp....lol....overall the camp is alright.....jus sum prob tt i realli dun wish to mention here..... jus oso i realised kinda miss out on a lotta things....

oh well time to go rest liao....realli haven had much slp till the pt i nearly hallucinate....came back home tt time....tot my parents changed the TV set when they didnt even change in the 1st place....lol....zzzz....

nv do i expect things change so much during tis camp....everything.....u can say....1st time im in rage since dunno when....which i dun realli like.....but i guess i hav no choice....the thing is rite in front of mi.....nw realli had a bad imprint on mi on them....haiz....