shall start tis blog frm yest....
went swimming....wha dam shiok....but when go hav lunch sit down.....den try to stand up....wha kao....hamstring pull....dam pain....cant even walk properly....go home can onli use com den less pain....
today went 4 bbq....alrite la acty....gt to relax aft the exams is a great thing....oso celebrated edmund angela n wen kai's bday......den gt entertainment tooo.....shall nt mention much....
on my way home....saw lay har....my sec sch fren....tho is she saw mi when im staring in blank air when in mrt....totally nv c her la...so paiseh....anyways.....realised she quitted sch n had a stable n successful job.....had high pay too....so dam cool.....
Goin to the bbq made mi realise hw lonely i am acty.....nv realli had 1 person tt i can comfortably talk to....tho i did try today.....n nv realli worked well.....partially....or shld i sae....mostly....cos of my lack of confidence.....all tt i wanted to sae all gone blank.....realli dun like the feeling of gg home disappointed.....tinking tt i shld do tis i shld do tt.....when i cant even do it.....felt so useless.....seeing 2 ppl together tis whole 5 sems.....n i onli hav 1 more sem left b4 NS....felt like a failure....nw alreadi havin 2nd tots of whether i wan to go IC camp or nt....dun like the feeling of bein obstracised....dun like the feeling of bein alone....haiz......they sae wats done during childhood will hav a major impact on ur life when ur older....hw true can tt b....
