haven been updating my blog in a while....cos dunno wat to blog bout...haiz....life is jus as normal 4 mi....exc tt exams r cumin....hope i can jus pass it....nv realli aimed 4 As or dist....haha....nw havin plant design....realli regretted nv listen in class during wk 1.....haiz....nw realli nd to catch up....fast....prac test is nxt wk....theory test aft national day....hw low....haha....

IC is frm 29th sept to 1st oct....haha cant wait....will b last time im involved in club activity i tink....cant b slacker anymore.....

woot....gt my new skin liao....haha thanx joyce mi young sis....help mi do everything until like dunno wat time....i tink until bout 4 in the morn frm 12 midnight...haha....so srry....cos dunno no hw to do all those crap...haha....jus sad tt cant put video n calendar....haiz...too big cant extend...but anyways the skin nice can liao....haha...1st skin change since like when....7 mths ago...haha....mus adopt to changes....haha....nw stuck in lesson....havin environmental engineering later...sianz....until 3....haiz...boring day....dunno y....

well gtg liao....off to my another lesson....sianz...

went to watch pirates 2 wif joan wilfred zhiming ames n rueyming.....quite nice the movie....but i cant wait 4 the nxt 1 cuming out nxt yr....zzz hav to wait....

aft tt mi n zhiming went to ps....woot....saw valencia....1st time i c her since like wat more den 1 yr ago?haha....den went to find my young sis....lol....she so hyper to c zhiming lor...dunno y...haha....

speaking of valencia....dunno y....when i c her...the memories tt i had in the 1st 3 mths surfaced back to mi.....kp tinking of the times we had.....short but fun....haiz....its jus too bad tt we all r too bz wif our own work....esp those in jcs....when will we all b going out together again? i guess its hard.....

memories....lost but nt 4gotten.....

went to escape n wild wild wet today....had fun....realli....jus chilling out with my clique....arens mi zhiming joan n wilfred we all went escape 1st.....went to sit the rides.... long time nv been there.....bout 4 yrs....so many things change....no more panasonic ride....gt new rides but sianz....maintenance.....but nevertheless....the 1 i anticipate most...the go karts.....finally i can sit....the last time i try to sit....too short...zzz...nw can....so fun....june came bout 2 i tink.....

den sianz....raining....decided to go eat den go wild wild wet...lucky 4 a while bout 20 mins i guess....if nt...sianz....@ wild wild wet.....1st time there.....woot....so fun....esp wif arens ard.....doin all the crazy stunts tt we nv tot we might do....haha....shall nt sae...dun learn its better...haha....

den went to tampines to find my sis....haha....but b4 tt went eating....b4 cum find her 4 the cake tt she help mi booked....haha....1st time c mi sis doin job...realli xin ku....she teaching her junior summore...den veri polite summore....lol.....waited 4 her till 11+ den went home.....

dunno wat i wanna do tml....play dota? mayb....long time nv play liao....haiz....shld i go back to the place where i use to like but i nw cant cos of studies? dilemmic.....

been 2 days aft the event....still hav fond memories of it....jus received photos frm alex.....here r sum of them....



peikun's team...gt 3rd....namely anthony,tzehao,yongzhen,ben,alven,isryad,peikun,fiona,jingen n xueting

tat xiong's team....gt 4th....namely aaron,nasir,weishun,marlon,zirong,tatxiong,wanwei, siewling n jasmine

andre's team...gt 15th....namely hexin,alex,arens,edward,jeremy,andrew,andre,puihan,elaine n angela

choonlong's team....who gt 17th....namely yoshika,michelle,calida,MI,kevin,huatjin,jiayi,choonlong,wangquan n weikang...andre jus extra promotion...lol....

runners of poly50 representing CLS.....woot....they rox....once again wanna thank them....n those ppl who supported mi along the way....those ppl who give us all those 100plus n water....those who yelled my name when im running to support mi....n a lotta ppl frm other clubs who i no who made tis poly50 race n unforgettable 1 4 mi....thanx.....

woot....poly50 ended jus nw....was GREAT.....y?

started the race bout 4....1st few laps...horrid....ppl running veri fast....kp shoving....veri cram....esp 1st stn....onli hav a narrow path to run....sux man.....thereafter.....bout 15 laps later....mentality strength starts to play a big part in the run.....see ppl veri tired aft their lap....or running n breakin durin their lap....but dunno y....my mental str seems to work 4 mi....kp running...no stopping.....in the end it pays off....

this is our position....

peikun's team....3rd...
tatxiong's team.....4th...
andre's team.....15th....
my team.....17th.....

tho im last team gt last out of the 4....but who cares? we all gt in the top 20 out of dunno hw many teams....ard 80? haha.....wat an acheivement....esp 4 mi....1st time had a real competition since pri sch when i won 2nd 4 street soccer competition....aft everybody ran finish we jus celebrated like mad.....i n choon long pour water on ourselves....den when CLS teams met up....all 'yang seh' 1st....den billibanja....den sing to the music....den splash water n ice @ each other....taking photos....madness everywhere....nevertheless fun....had a realli great time....but zzz crushed my hamstring when i took photo....arens la....push hw many ppl den they all crush my leg....argh....lucky its aft race....speaking of arens....haiz tt lucky bastard....won 1st price in lucky draw....lol....den tatxiong n peikun team went up to stage to get their prizes....so proud of them....haha.....

den we had our own debrief.....ironically...1st time we all 10 ppl together....since training started mths ago....talked a lotta stuff....even tho we r last team....no doubt we hav the heart of a 1st team...haha....

to summarize....wat a great day i had today.....thru out the race im nt even nervous @ all....dunno y....den aft the race had a lotta fun wif the ppl....wanted to name all of their names but cant rmb la...haha....oh ya....4got to mention....the water girls n boys r veri efficient....every time ppl run their lap finish den ask 'u wan water?' 100 plus on 1 hand n water on the other....haha....nice.....n i wanna thank everybody tt is involved in all the trainings those tt push mi motivated mi....n every1 4 their spirit today....realli had a great time....hope it will b the same nxt yr....haha =)

jus uploaded a video frm keane 'nothing in my way' tts the title...

poly50 later...nervous but dun feel it sumhw....mayb cos i race 4 the fun of it...haha....

b back tonight to tell on the race.....

in the meantime....hope i do well later....

been a while since i last blogged....been bz wif sch quizzes n reports....so tired today....mus b cos of yest final world cup match....sianz....france lost 5-3 on penalties...stupid zidane....wat hav u done? y u go headbutt materazzi?haiz.....anyways....today was kinda weird....started off the day wif LAV test....haiz....dunno whether can make it or nt....den receive back my maths paper....haiz....whole class gt 100 or ard 80-90 sumthin....but mi? i gt 72....argh....lowest in class....haiz....cant blame any1...all cos of my careless mistake....haiz...hope i do better when the exams cum....den veri sleepy thru out the whole few hours ahead...den gt back thermodynamics ppr...wheeee....i passed....wat a relief...thanx to wilfred n joan who helped mi out....u 2 inspired mi to study....haiz...kp tinking of my past....when i always tink tt dun nd to study tt much....nw i came to realise the imptance of study....haiz....n to tink tt the thing i hate most hav to b the 1 i hav to face most of the time....once again....like to thank the both of them...owe u 2 1...

nw i beginning to hav more of the confidence to face any paper...haha....off to rest liao....hav to make up 4 my slp yest....zzz....

'everybody's changing n i dun feel the same....* hw true can it b....a few days ago....im the 1 who is suffering....drinking beer to drown my sorrows....nw its the converse....my frens r suffering frm their own problems...n im tryin my best to help them....tho i may nt no hw....but hope tt im there to b able to reduce sum of their miseries....cum to tink of it....realli....tts wat frens r 4....to share wif u ur weals n woes.....haiz....n to tink tt all of these problems tt i had....wld happen to the 1 close to mi.....n they helped mi in solvin my probs.....nw its my turn to do tt....realli....

everybody changes.....

phew....acty wanted to go wif them to thomson....but c-ing them together is jus so painful....so i decided to go home....well acty...tts wat i tot....den decided to chill @ esplanade rooftop....oso hav a beer or 2.....ahhh....the feelin is cool....but i nearly gt drunk...haiz...hw i wish i could...den let mi 4get everything....everything!!

nw @ home....still a litta dizzy but alrite....slping soon....wanna 4get today....hope tml will b fine.... n i'll wait 4 tt day...jus tt day....to cum....

haiz...nw @ my fren house typin tis entry....b4 tis...argh....wat a bad day....reached his house call him nv ans cos no batt...den call his gf den no reply cos silent mode den they slping....haiz...waited 4 them outside 4 nearly 15 mins...den went to mac 1st....waited 4 them 4 half n hour....zzz so frustrated....den they came....i acty simmered down n wanted to study....but theres sum mental block tt restrict mi to study....mayb is tt incident tt happen....or sth else...i jus dunno...argh....or mayb its my fren n his gf....haiz....c them so sweet compared to myself...bein alone...realli its an emotional toll....den went eat....den on the way to his house....they were holding hands on tis stretch of like endless road....wif nobody ard exc him n her....n mi....zzz feel so extra...so i pretended to msg to nt get distracted.....

nw im here....stuck in his house wif him n her bein lovey dubby....den i kp tinking of myself....all this past yrs tt i tried....but failed....he told mi....everything takes time to surface n happen.... but im tinking....cos he had a gf....so tts y he sae tt.... cum to tink of it....i had nv been realli successful in life...frm relationships.....to studies....den tinking back of all those days in sec sch when im bein bullied or criticised....wats wrong wif mi? am i realli tt bad as i tot i wld b?

nw currently they 2 dunno do wat la....i oso dun realli wanna care much....cos i no im nt even gonna hav it....so y bother? but jus feel like gettin outta here....away frm everything.....all these studies.....stress.....relationship things....everything.....jus mi n nature....but sch dun allow mi to... i jus nd a time alone....

haiz....y am i even here? i dunno....felt so wrecked n 'hurt' on the inside....nw dun realli hav the mood to do anything....jus wanna listen to mi music....i guess tts the onli 'person' tt i can b wif....4 nw....till tt time.....which i dunno will b when....mayb a few yrs....or mayb nt @ all....