dunno y...jus feel low today....try to b high in front of the campers but jus cant....i oso nv realli get the respect tt i tot i deserved....mayb im tinking too much....but dunno....jus sumhw feel like i realli dun hav a position in the camp even tho im the medic head....but haiz....wat to do? in life....sum ppl like or hate u....jus hav to accept it....

oh well....jus nw handle 1 person.....i oso dunno whether i handled it correctly or nt....haiz....hope i dun get anybody into trouble....i realli dun wan anything to happen....

gtg....wanna slp soon.....

respect.....the 1 thing i hope to get....but jus cant get.....

haiz....1st day of sch aft holis....expected....late 4 cls....den the lectures r sooooo.....BORING!....yupz....u heard mi rite....its dam boring....i dun even no hw i can survive 4 12 wks nw...i jus wondering....

basically the day is nth much jus full of actions....shall nt mention it here....nt very convienient...

all i can sae is quite bad....den went out wif zhengye to accompany him to collect his bracelet....den walk ard a while den went home...along the way talk a lot of things....haha @ least tts nt boring...

watched spore idol jus nw.....as expected.....hady won....wat do u no....its the same situation as last season....haiz....cant sporeans wake up n realise wat they r doin? oh well....glad tt tis 1 may b the last season....phew....

stupid internet connection kp causing mi to b kanna killed....wha lao aye....want a change....

its true tt everybody changes....but 4 the better or 4 the worse? i dunno....jus stuck in tis place where a dilemma has to occur....hope u had fun on 1st day cos mine is horrid....

had game trial yest...kinda alrite jus didnt get to slp much cos cant slp....den went back home @ ard 8....suppose to slp veri long....in the end onli slpt 4 2 hrs...sianz....

den went wif my mum dad n my young sis to change phone...haiz dun wanna talk bout it....1 thing i no its tt....i wont b gettin a new phone until like wat....november? wth....waited 4 like 1 n a half yrs liao den nw hav to wait again? argh.....

den evening went wif jiayi evelyn yunzhen peiqi n zhengye to go marina south to had seafood buffet....haha....had fun chatting n talking a lotta stuffs.....aft tt went arcade den went home...

haiz....holis end officially tml....nw hav to go back to sch again....feels kinda....weird u can say....such a short holi....hw ironic....tts nt wat i sae bout a few wks ago....which makes mi wonder....wat is it tt u realli wan in life.....till nw i dun hav an ans....

hw weird tt during the game trial i can behave in a way tt u r....invisible....

met yu cheng paul chern xin n his fren j to go to the cable ski....woot....it was fun....tho i fell into the water a lotta times b4 i get the trick....n managed to stay on the ski....haha....but wakeboarding is hard....gt off the platform a few metres den poof....haha...

oh suddenly rmb....my fren i was bside him....den when he is ready to go....he flew....but the board is still there at the dock....haha...im like tinking....ermmm....where the hell is he? lol....

oh ya....met sum rjc acquaintances at the ski park....haha...veri de frenly....they were all the same cls who cum to play aft their prelims....wha dam pro sia they all....

aft tt went to bowl....woot....gt my highest record ever.....165! haha...so happy....but den the 2nd rd....ermmm....

den acty wanted to went home....yu cheng sae go tm n century sq....so i go lor....jus walked ard....den saw pasar malam....tried the smelly beancurd....weird....near the area....stinks....aft u try it....it taste like normal fried beancurd....den realli....the smell is gone....haha....aft tt eat ice cream den went home...

haha....had fun today....i hope u had fun today too....or shld i sae....everyday....=)

back frm poly50 celebration chalet....well b4 tt in the morn went 4 IC OC meeting....haha...best ppl tt i worked wif....they r jus so funny la....woot....den jus so happen saw ICE camp....its their last day....haha we oso go ji xiao them once....woot....aft tt went to chalet....haha....saw sum ppl tt i haven seen in sch 4 a long time liao...sure had fun wif them....@ nite play mahjong chit chat all those....till bout 3 den zzz....

today woke up @ ard 9.....den went to eat breakfast den went home...

holis ending soon....dunno whether its a gd or bad thing....haiz....mus make full use of my last wk man.....

haiz...c u so tired is so ermmm....i dunno hw to say....but i hope u do tc of urself....

jus checked my result jus nw....well it was alrite....2.92 sem overall 2.866.....haiz....jus cant get a 3 isnt it.....n the worst thing....NO As!!!!! the onli A i hav was frm a stupid module....char dev.....wth....o well.....work hard.....but hw hard to get my goal? is my effort realli nt enough? or isit destiny? my sec sch oso the same....no A1 onli A2.....nw cum poly....no A onli B+.....wat mus i do sia....tinking bout it....shld i even b in or nt.....feel like bowing out of it....but dunno hw to sae....

*sigh*....hope u do well....dun b a loser like mi man.....

haiz....recently felt so sick ever since tue nite....dunno y....even walkin up the stairs oso like so difficult like tt....my whole body jus feel so weak....headache almost every nw n den....den oso veri lethargic....oh well...try to tink wat i did 4 the past wk....

wed....went to sum bbq @ east coast park organised by sports n welfare comm.....sianz....the pit is like dam far away la....overall the bbq is ok la...nth much of a hype or sumthing....jus a way to relax myself....or try to....cos the whole time im lying down shivering....haiz...

thur....1st IC game trial....it was alrite la....nt much of a prob 4 mi....jus feel tt running tt time veri tiring even tho its short dist....den @ nite fall sick again....tis time i felt veri weak...took a medicine n went to slp....

fri...woke up felt slightly better....went to LAN shop play games....but nw back home...felt so weak again....wats wrong wif mi?

oh well....i've been tinking....y do i even tag in the 1st place? is it jus to kp those memories? or show to others bout ur exp in life? if its the latter...den i feel i shldnt blog @ all....look....i guess tt no 1 is acty reading my blog....y do they even bother rite? sumtimes i realli wonder....who ur true frens r....who will realli b there 4 u when ur down? who u can call upon in the middle of the nite jus 4 him or her to accompany u? i guess i haven met any1 who is....apparently due to bz-ness i guess....

they sae love cums when least expected....but hw am i gonna expect the unexpected when i kp tinking bout her? i c everybody ard mi....or bein blessed....but y nt mi? they sae kp waiting....but hw long? 50 yrs? by den i wld hav....argh....dun wanna tink bout it....i jus cant wait....time is my enemy....if u can rmb.....

woot....went 4 the RSAF open house today....veri nice....1st time went 4 an air show.....dam nice....better view den frm my house....haha....like the part when the F-16 is bout to take off n saw the whole flame behind the jet....woot so cool....still gt others....haiz too lazy to say everything.....mus go today n c 4 urself....

den @ nite went to comex @ expo....acty nt much interest in mi there....cos nt buyin anythin...went to find alex....haha explain until so detailed....lol....

den went bedok wif my fren to wait 4 my another fren....cos he driving.....den realised his car on rent....so cant realli drive too far....sianz...but nvm....went to eat prata....woot....when we gt the bill....weird....onli $3 when we bought 2 plain 2 cheese 1 egg teh bing teh n ice lemon tea....den when we left tt time....realised....we onli pay 4 the drinks....haha....we eat 4 free....woot.....den went to east coast....hang out n drink coffee....aft tt he send mi home....

gg out wif seow hong tml....long time nv c him liao....cant wait to tell him everything bout my life...woot....

hmmm....tinking whether i shld buy tt or nt....n tinking when to meet her....mayb wed bahs....in the meantime....missin u....