woot....went poly50 training today...was shiok man....went wif the 1st team ppl....the feelin was totally different....even tho im struggling @ the start....but dunno y....aft encouragements frm ben jingen xueting tzehao yongzhen anthony wangquan huatjin alven....i feel like i can run very fast nt @ the expense of my stamina.....the exp is totally different frm any other trainings tt i had....nt say my team no gd or wat la....they were great too....mayb jus nd the mental touch....cos i exp it 4 both....when u r leading.....ur main aim is jus nt to let ppl overtake....therefore run faster....but when u r behind its feels like he or she is too far away so y bother catching up? mayb we LL nd to change a bit of the mindset when we r bein lapped....mayb tt cld help....den went home tt time wif yongzhen tt time....he told mi my performance is much different frm the last few trainings....as in can increase speed without the cost of more stamina....it jus feel great....feel motivated to run even better 4 the nxt training.....

hmmm....i guess its nt realli bout the speed....when u r running 50 laps....mental exhaustion sets in...den when u nd to sharpen it to tell urself u can do it....u can do it.....phew....i feel like i can run again....

gtg liao....nd to go book space 4 my dad 4 the germany vs argentina match....haha.....so earlys rite? but i guess will b a lotta ppl so mus chiong....haha....

haiz....stuck in com lab nw havin lesson....plant design to b exact....gt back my ppr....well expected....i failed my paper....gt 43%....haiz....totally no clue bout tis module...nw the reality of forwarding a module sets in....nt onli tis module....thermody too....test nxt wk....mus pass if nt die...haiz....dunno wats wrong wif mi....kp failing in life....everything....frm love life....to studies.... is failure realli the mother to success? if it is....y didnt i c any results?

speaking of failure...ghana n spain failed to qualify....sianz....but @ least the quarter final btw brazil n france wld b interesting...haha.....dunno whether my papa wld b mad bout the results...lol....cos he support spain...

back to topic...wat am i gonna do to pass all these? is all tis things tts is goin in my life destined? or do i even hav the power to ctrl it? argh...realli @ a dismal n despo state nw....dunno wats goin on wif life....poly50 training later....zzz....hav to wait 4 4 freakin hours 4 it....haiz.... @ least i can do sum revision....i CANT slack anymore....no more time left 4 mi....reality sets in.....

haiz....1st day of sch aft 3 wks holis.....no gd man.....1st thing cum back....ask back all those toot assignments n reports....haiz....den the env eng n thermo lesson terrorise mi sia....saying all the test cumin up....wha lao aye....supposedly my once no stress life tt i tot i had....nw becum study study study sia....haiz...dun like studying....but wat to do? bo bian....zzz environmental eng test tml....so many stuffs lor...dunno which 1 to rmb...which 1 dun nd....haiz...die liaos la....esp nxt wk thermody test....can flunk sia...jus prayin nt to fwd the module can liaos....haha......

decided to blog b4 i go slp....jus in case i 4get wat i wan to say.....

went to watch germany vs sweden n argentina vs mexico.....when i arrive @ mac 4 1st match....zzz....crowded sia....no space.....1 hr b4 the match like tt liaos....lucky lucky manage to get a seat....den when match start....all started to take chairs to sit....1st time i c so many ppl watching 1 match.....exciting....den hor....my left side r uncles talkin hokkien....den my right is my bunch of soccer frens talkin malay...zzz.....hear both sides....in the end....germany won 2-0....went back home 4 awhile....den came back watch 2nd match.....zzz...aft half time i slpy slpy liao....den aft tt extra time...wha lucky game ends 2-1 to argentina if nt i peng ah.....

k....go zzz liao....realli nd to catch up....dunno whether wan to watch england vs ecuador or nt....haiz....c hw bahs....sch starting tml....sianz....but @ least can get to c my frens...haha.....

went 4 ms peh cremation today....kinda alright except 4 1 big issue....is it true tt u will b ostracised by ur sec sch mates who is @ the east side jus becos u r most of the time in the west side? tts wat happen to mi i feel when i went there jus nw....they kp criticising mi 4 no reason....whether the way i speak....or the way i dress or the way i look....wtf....nw cumin to tink of it....i tink i did made the rite decision to cum to SP....where no matter hw much my frens criticise mi i dun mind....but cum on....sec sch mates....haven seen each other 4 like yrs....n tis is hw u wanted to do it? argh....so frustrated nw....until the pt where i dun even hav the mood to do my work...haiz....is it jus mi....or am i jus bein oversensitive....but if u were to b in my shoes....hw wld u feel if u met ur sec sch 4 the 1st time in months.....onli to b criticised 4 everything....i nd comments...plz....4 i might nt even wanna go to the east side anymore....

back frm mi class chalet....fun....n u no wat? TODAY MI BDAY!!! haha.....shall talk bout tt later....

bout the class chalet....1st day ok la...jus a bit frustrated in the morning....cos mi clsmates call mi to go round the whole place la...i @ lib call mi go stn...den @ stn go back home to take mahjong set....zzz....den aftnn check in....suppose go wif the ppl to go rent bike....but i too tired...so stayed @ chalet....den @ chalet sianz so went out....saw freddie n chinliat....they gt ps2....so i went back...haha....play until like dunno wat time....den set up bbq...haha....mr koh came....den dunno wat happen....suddenly talked bout the individual assignment....wha low leh.....den each grp went to do their own things....wilfred they all went to walk....we all went watch soccer...den chinliat they all cycle...we reached the chalet earliest slpt immediately.....woke up @ ard 730 plus...kanna disturbed by wilfred they all....zzz....we all wanted to go escape....but rained...zzz....so play mahjong in the end...but tired sia....keep slping all the time...den @ night went to eat....den mi n arens go watch soccer @ 'platinum lounge'.....

at the stroke of midnight.....mi bday!!! went back chalet tt time wilfred waiyew rueyming ames and joan all slpt liao...zzz....so we both slp lor....woke up in the midst of night....cant slp...but slpt in the end....till bout 9...den si arens.....call mi to go ask a girl opp the chalet 4 her no. zzz....quite ok la....mayb cos i told her the truth of y i ask her no. haha....den went eat n went home....

haha....goin poly50 later....beats stayin @ home....goin out wif family later....go makan...shall b back soon....

zzz so tired frm yest....went 4 poly50 training in the aftnn.....jun hao brought us to the real track itself n ran 20 laps instead of the real 50....sia la...cos our team member is lagging ppl...so sum of us hav to run 400 instead of 200....but nevertheless its ok la...wont b like tt in the real event....

nw i realised....every time i go mac....i wld meet many acquaintances n frens....its jus so happen u wld talk to the person bside n near u bout the match.....n celebrate together....haha....talking bout frens....i wld c sum of my frens which nw i dun hav much of a chance to talk to....world cup is jus the 1 event tt can bring ppl together...jus 4 tt 1 mth....

1st time stayed @ home on a sat 4 like hw many bonker mths liao...dunno wat to do acty....mayb wanted to do my hw....if i can pull myself to....

cant slp....n jus came back frm the match of england n trinidad n tobago...wooo england won 2-0 jus as i predicted b4 the match....but zzz nv bet....haha....

found another great song frm keane....titled 'nothing in my way' here's the lyrics....

suppose to blog yest....but zzz my 2 sis use the com until i zzz....so nw im in sch blogging....

yest had so much things goin on....started the day being bored n tired....jus cant kp my eyes open...went poly50 training in the morning....hmmm....can sae quite ok la....onli mi alex yongzhen kexin weishun edward went 4 the morning 1....junhao took us 4 training....as i said...it was ok la...@ least better den the evening 1 i heard...haha....den yenwei asked us whether we wanted to play netball wif them...haha....fun....den left sch bout 12 to meet up wif wilfred joan rueyming n amos to watch movie...but b4 tt wanted to find seoul garden @ marina sq....ended up goin to the box office to buy tickets when searching...haha....den realised its on the other side....sianz...but nevertheless had fun eatin 4 bout 1 n a half hour....in tt time...changed the pot i tink bout 4 times....den rueyming observed tt none of the tables ard us changed the pots....den wilfred said tis way they r eatin charcoal....lol....den june came bout the time we r leaving....den went shopping bout an hour...den arens came too....haha...

went to watch 'cars' oh...it was awesome...tho it wasnt as lame as 'over the hedge' but it sure is funny in its way....esp the last part....when all the pixar movies became a car's world.... like 'toy story' becumin 'car story' n many more...haha...watch n u'll ud wat i mean....aft the movie went shopping again...den go eat n play pool b4 we went home....

i tink the movie sumhw reflects wat i am...n its goes like tis...

sumtimes in ur life....u nd to slow down ur pace n take ur time to enjoy the scene ard u... if nt... u might nt even no wat u missed out on....

i guess its true....all my life i wanted to do things fast...frm reachin a destination to doin stuffs... i hav always wanted it to b as fast as possible...mayb i guess its time 4 mi to slow down... n take things into stride.... oh ya 1 more thing frm the movie which cums to perspect....

winning isnt everything....

i guess i realli hav much to work on to improve myself...haiz....

well guess i hav to b back to work...nw still waitin 4 my project grp to cum back...while listening to keane's under the iron sea album....kinda nice most of their songs....very melodious... gtg... will b bloggin soon i tink....

went back to sch today to help jingen n jiayi to pack up the clubhouse....soon....huizhen mark n elaine came to help out....while packing tt time....we didnt realise hw much stuff the clubhouse hav sia....sum of the stuffs include pegs kettle tent hose so many stuffs....den heard frm jiayi tt annabel wont b cumin down so cant shift the stuff....so can onli pack up....den finished bout 5+....

goin to mc later....wanna watch match....goin poly 50 training tml in the morn....den go watch movie...'cars' haha...den most prob goin to siewling's house to watch soccer.....zzz....so tired....

the title of tis entry is the 2nd album title 4 keane....woooOO!!!! finally....aft 2 yrs....their 2nd album....cant wait 4 it to b in stores on tue.... heard 1 of their songs.....titled 'is it any wonder?' woot....super nice....esp its video...machiam like rollercoaster ride....which is true in their saying.... life is a rollercoaster where there r ups n downs....but it is inevitable.... heres the lyrics of the song....oh btw uploaded the video in tis blog liao...so i recommend u watch...haha....

haha....back frm mcdonalds @ my house area....was watching soccer there....

went there ard 8....n hour b4 england vs paraguay.....scared later no seats mah.....n i was rite... haha....half n hour b4 it....no seats liao....den match starts....4 mins in alreadi crowd excited liao... cos GOAL!!!!....haha....thereafter....all the misses we all go 'wooo....ah....awww.......wha lao....' haha veri exciting....beats watching @ home (anyways my house dun hav cable so....hav to cum down to mac to watch....haha....) final score 1-0 to england....

den stayed on to watch trinidad n tobago vs sweden....zzz....no goals....but i mus say hislop (the tobago keeper) is gd....made a lotta saves....in the end....0-0 den the crowd applauded...haha... indeed it is a big feat 4 a country who participated the world cup 4 the 1st time....

b4 all tt went to play dota....1st time played a game tt is super freakin long....2 n a half hours to b exact....zzz....play until i peng ah....in the end our team still win haha....haven had tis much excitement in a game 4 quite a while....

yawn...well off to my dreamland again...dunno whether wanna watch the matches tml....c 1st bah...poly 50 training on mon...hope to do my best...zzz....

whoa...back frm the non budget event....it was fun....lets do a sum up....

yest....9 am reached sch met up wif the GLs 4 last min stuff...den the game is on....mi partner is shu xian...n our grp name is 'flame crabs' (Zzz...always tink is lame crap...lol....) the others r 'hai dai' 'charcoal' 'hot log' n 'sotong'......my grp can sae ok la....quite zai n high....even tho the weather realli isnt helping us....once it is raining...n the nxt it stop....den it rained again...wooo so refreshing to walk in the rain....aft all the games they had played @ the stns we had the mass game.....it was fun....aft tt wash up n free time...basically i jus slack ard watch tv play mahjong chat wif the ppl.... sum of the things tt happened durin tt time include alex gettin obsessed over spore idol contestant jasmine....amos n melissa playin hai dai like dunno hw many thousand times....chit chatting wif sum GLs n yr 1s in a room...

ard 11+ we went downtown east to buy bicardi wooohooo...den aft 12 midnight we wish 1 of our GL, amos....happy bday...jus so happen its today...haha...den aft tt GLs play 'fa jiu' game....play until almost all seh seh 1....haha...den play card games until bout 3+ when the toot security cum n complain us bein too noisy....so sum of the ppl went to zzz....while i tried to slp...outside the room inside the room...living room....all didnt work....so in the end chatted....till bout 7+ we cant tahan liao n went to downtown east to hav breakfast.....aft tt went home....

jus wanna take tis opportunity to thank the non budget GL 4 makin all tis possible...tho @ times its tough....but we did made it...haha....hope we all can hav @ least an outing or sumthin nxt time together.... more imptly....wan wei n mark 4 organising tis event n made it a success....even tho the rain came...it doesnt damper our moods...haha...

hmmm...thru tis exp...i found out tt being a GL sure is nt ez...nt onli hav to lead by example....but oso to motivate....but all tt is worth it 4 once....even tho jus once in a quite minor event (cant compare wif FO or day tour rite? haha....)....im glad to hav @ least the chance to b 1... if u ask mi whether i wan to b GL again...i wld gladly accept tt position....

well...off to my dreamland nw...haven been slping 4 like the past dunno hw many hours...nd sum rest....zZz....

had GL training today....haha....bunch of fun ppl....all super lame sia...had lunch....den learn sum ice breaking games n songs n cheers cos sum of us nt veri sure....den aft training went home....

talked to her yest....she saw my blog entry....n she accepted my apology....n 4 tt..i wanna thank her 4 4giving mi....i guess in life....ppl do make mistakes...its jus whether the person wanna accept ur apology or nt.....hope everything turns out fine when i c her....

on the brighter side....non budget event is tml!!! hope my grp will b zai haha.....n to all GLs.... JIA YOU WOR!!!!! WOOOOO!!!!!.....off to my tv liao....b back in 2 days....

stupid blogger....totally cant load yest so no choice hav to blog today....

yest was totally nt mi today....1stly....sprained my left ankle...again....den b4 my sprain ran 6 by 200 ard track but it like aft tt i started to hav double vision....sumthin like sub conscious mind.... argh....aft training went kfc eat...on my way home is so seh....

den i msg her sumthin which i tot nw is dumb....sumthin tt i nv tot i wld do in my life....haiz.... it onli became clear of wat i did....jus tis morning when i woke up n tot of it....haiz....if u ever c tis blog entry....i jus wanna tell u tt im srry....cos i no myself wasnt the person tt i am yest....

hav u ever wonder y sumtimes u wld do things tt is nt @ ur own will? i oso dunno wat happen...but it jus so happen to mi yest...i was totally too tired to tink straight....every tot of my mind seems to go blank while things tt i wouldnt even tot of suddenly appears....haiz...i guess onli thru explanation wld ppl no wat is goin on....

well....off to do my hw liao...cant slack anymore...hope to get everything done by tis wk....@ least i wont feel the stack of hw during my holis....oh ya.....another thing...my left ankle....darn...hope it recovers....

jus return back frm game trial of non budget....shall nt talk much bout the games itself....mus let the yr 1s find out themselves on thursday....haiz....leg sprain keep cumin back... hope it will recover by thursday....if nt realli had problems running....haiz....den myself nt 100%....dunno y...mayb cos haven recover frm yest....same thing...by thur i hope....

nw i realli begin to c the toughness of bein a GL....tinkin of those days tt i so wanted to b GL....tt passion....but when ur here being a GL....its so....different....realli salute those who did a gd job of being a GL....nw i can truly ud hw tough it is...all those training u had gone thru...mus b tough...
haiz....jus hope tt i'll do my best....tho cant b compared to the FO GLs.....but i'll definitely try to b @ near their par....if better....@ their par.....

supppose to b posted yest but com screw up so...

'haiz....went poly 50 selection today....running the 6 by 200m tt time....the 3rd rd jus sprained my ankle... den cant realli run fast anymore liao....another thing....door to cls club spoil liao...woooOO!!! lol....y shld i b happy bout tt? haha...oso dunno....mayb cos 2nd time liao...zzz...1st time nd to whack wif an axe.....haha....ermmm....today suppose to b in gd mood 1...but kanna spoiled by sum ppl....screw up everything den in the end i hav to do everything.... zzz....argh....super....oh mayb nt...ExTrEmElY tired.....dunno y....the road to the MRT feels super long...dam shag haiz hope i can recover....'

havin non budget game trial today....haiz....hope i can @ least run today....leg haven recover frm sprain yest....n body extremely tired frm everything....jus surviving....everyday....monday is gonna b disaster....