SCREWED UP!!!!!! y am i so dam unlucky.....everything i do....everywhere i go....all dun turn out rite....

cancelled my trip to japan 4 FYP....screw FYP.....

1st 1 to go choose the teams....tot had it....den suddenly 1 left n another cfmed wif others....so left to find ppl....den all i choose all chosen....den....left wif 1 team i joined....

tot settled....den 1 more came in....den 2....den 1....so grp nt settled....so settled on choosing the FYP....den ballot jus nw....super screwed....onli left wif 1st choice.....since 2nd 3rd n 4th all walkover...so ballot 1st choice....nv gt it....so f up....make the 7 2nd rd balloter look like some losers....den 2nd rd gt the project....but nt aft another screwed 1st rd ballot...gt it on the 2nd choice walkover....

everytime i try to go to a grp....nv realli happened....every relationship i tried to start...nv start...everywhere i go....gt the sense tt ppl dun like me.....talk bout my life....talk hw bad it is.....WAT MORE CAN HAPPEN? i realli hate my life nw.....dun feel like gg thru anymore of my yr 3 life.....getting more n more miserable everyday.....n its nt even a full term....onli 2 wks....2 freakkin wks n all these happened.....wats wrong wif my freaking lifee?

my mum asked mi once....r u happy wif ur life? i wanted to tell her....hw can i b wif my life so screwed? can sum1 tell me.....

no appetite n no mood 4 everything nw....wish i can slp n nv wake up....

haiz...nw in sch....discussin bout projects....projects....n more projects....zzz onli 4th day of sch already feelin the stress tt i tot wouldnt cum back n HAUNT mi....haha....but oh well....

FYP major screw up....haven settle the grp....jus wanna get it done n over wif...den b happy bout doin my project....

gg out tis wkend....but dunno y....feel kinda odd bout it...hope everything turns out well....

had day tour today....1st grp of ppl i saw....my batch ppl....most of which came back frm their overseas itp....den went to other stns to c....ended up @ the last stn....den helped them....went back to hav bbq feast.....aft much chatting n entertainment....went home....

geee....sch starting soon...hated it....dunno y....mayb cos i feel my holiday is very short...but bah....last day today....feels kinda forever....hope it will b....

jus came back frm outing wif joan zhiming arens waiyew tinwei n our trainer hong wee....haha had fun...went marche 1st....chit chat den go to secret recipe...b4 gg home...oh ya....we oso gave him a shirt....haha nice....tho nt the 1 initially wanted....

ahhh....feel more relaxed nw.....even tho we onli hav 1 wk of holi...but to mi....its more den enough time 4 mi to enjoy it...i will make full use of it.....dun realli hoping 4 sch to start anyways....

k go play WoW liao.....

jus graduated frm CPTC.....its hard to believe tt 6 wks had alreadi passed since it started....felt onli like yest....time pass so fast when we hav fun.....wanted to take tis chance to thank the trainers esp hong wee.....4 teachin mi on a whole lotta things tt i can nv learn out of the classroom...n the chance of exposing to such great trainers....

den went back to FO camp 07/08....feel tt the GLs had fun wif the freshies.....realli bring back those days....but oso had fun wif sum of the freshies la....tho nt realli no them....but time will tell....

tot i can hav a long entry....but too tired nw....so wanted to cut short....gtg zzz liao....later evening meeting wif hong wee wif my grp 4 dinner....makan!