wooot.....so i had finally graduated.....3 yrs go by......jus like tt.....the grad ceremony itself was ok....but the photo taking sessions later were great......will upload some pics when i received it....

our course oso received a graduating book to reminisce of our times during the 3 yrs.....it sure was interesting....

had a lotta tots running thru my mind seeing those ppl i met during these 3 yrs....a lotta gd memories happen during these 3 yrs n i realli appreciate the time we had....

met tis fren onli 4 a few mths.....but nw i c a better light of respect n honor 4 him.....aft hearing.....reading....n knowing him in person.....his story realli inspires ppl....

jus a few sec ago saw the news bout our sch grad ceremony.....haha lucky didnt hav mi taken sia lol....didnt even know those camera inside the convention centre is 4 the media....lol.... but overall enjoyed myself during the grad ceremony.....nw nd to rest my leg.....dam freakin strained....n exhausted....lol.....

found tis interesting entry frm my fren blog....cos it realli reflected my current situation tt im in nw....in a way acty nt directly.....

Breaking free from overthinking:

1. Understand that overthinking is not your friend

Overthinking does not makes you see life more clearly, instead it gives u a tunnel vision that only focus at the wrongs in your life. It drains your motivation to do anything positive and cripples your thinking about solutions to the problems. At a point of time, you sense that gaining new important insights can make breaking free from overthinking very difficult. It seems wrong to put down the compelling issues cause they're not solved and make you feel bad. You feel deeply justified in your anger and sadness-you deserve to be furious and have the right to feel depressed! you do have the right, but overthinking only fans them into a huge fire that gets out of control. You may sink into a depression that you can't pull out of. You may lash out in anger in ways u'll later regret.Recognise that overthinking is not your friend! It is not giving you deep insights but stealing away your thoughts and feelings. It is seducing you to think and do thinks that are not of your favour. If you find that you're struggling inside yourself with overthinking, try something corny by saying
"Overthinking, you are not my friend! You are hurting me! Go away!"

2. Give It a Rest

Give your brain a rest by engaging in pleasant distractions! Do things that you like, that will make you happy, make you feel contented. A jog, shopping, have ice-creams, have chocolates, do volunteering, engage in grp activities, bake.. whatever or whichever that give your brain a rest. But do not indulge yourself in alcohol or anything that's against your conscience.

3. Get up and get moving

Get your butt off the chair and move around! Engage in physical activity as a distraction. Dont fall into trap that you will gain great insights into your problems by thinking them through the night. The thinking in the middle of the night rarely holds any special benefits, and often fraught with anxiety and fear. Moreover, if you think alot at night, you'll be tired the next day hindering yout ability to think straight. Get out of bed, read something pleasant or take a walk when overthinking at night. Change the outlook of the place (home/office) if it triggers overthinking. Move around! Take a walk, go for exercise!

4. Join the thought Police

Sometimes we are in a situation in which it is difficult to find a distraction from our overthinking or get up to move around.You can try telling yourself firmly to stop overthinking for the moment and how do we do so? Just yell silently "STOP!" to yourself or you can buy this mini toy "STOP" sign to put at home,in your office or carry it around. Everyone has the ability to create her own inner "STOP" sign and thereby call a halt to negative spiraling. Maybe saying a stop wont work for you, try some other words like "No!" or "Dont go there!" or "Done!". This will stop your overthinking for a short time but hopefully long enough to allow you to intervene with yourself to other ways that you will have longer-term effect.

still slightly depressed atm....haven realli recovered frm it....but im guessing tis post will help mi a bit in a way....thnx a lot.....

cant slp tonight....something jus happened.....havin restless nights 4 the past few days...dun will b able to tonight....so might as well blogged bout it....if u r reading tis post....im nt blamin u.....its nt ur fault anyway....mayb its jus my mind...

been veri depressed @ myself aft the conversation....esp the last msg....cos i didnt know hw to react initially...my heart came to accept tt....but somehw my mind cant....its jus tt i didnt expect tt last tuesday was the last time i wld saw u.....aft tt i hav to wait 4 a mth....tt day kp detesting myself tinking tt its my fault to c u bein down....i onli felt better aft ur clarification wif mi the day aft....

nw my whole feeling of typing tis entry is so....moody....jus tinking bout the fact tt it will onli b a mth later when i can c u kills mi....within tis period of time i realli duno wat to do.....slacking......but realli doin absolutely blank......job....but still havin tt fear....tt fear in which i cant explain....mayb tts the reason y i screwed the job interview.....there is tis fear inside mi tellin mi all bout my insecurities.....n it showed during the interview....

haiz...my mind is in a blurred state nw....1 mth is realli depressing.....n jus when i was lookin 4ward to sat.....den tt sentence....feel so wrecked nw....shall nt mention the details here....had tt conversation aft....but its tt last sentence tt killed mi.....

im hoping i wont hav another sleepless nights.....but im guessing tis nite wld b another 1.....

tired....mentally...n emotionally.....

they say there's always a 1st 4 everything....well im guessing tonight wld b a lot of 1st.....realli opened up my heart to u jus nw....make mi say things which i dun to others....realli had a great time gg out wif u today....realli enjoyed myself 4 the 1st time.....realli hope...to c u soon.....=)

oh well....i did received my letter on the morning of my last post.....n u no wat? its in....SEPTEMBER!!! im like....wtf.....i hav to wait 4 4 freakin mths jus to b posted to the army?

a lotta things ran thru my mind aft i received it....kp tinking bout the past.....bout tt moment in time during sec sch npcc.....but mostly tinking bout hw i managed to do napfa twice n failed both times while all my others frens jus pass wif onli one shot.....i kp tinking....the effort i put in wif them is the same.....but hw come the results tt came out is totally different? i oso had another tot....most....can sae almost all of my cls mates all went in the july batch.....yet im stuck here havin to b mocked @......being inside the 4 + 9 wks BMT....havin to ORD much later den them.....i kinda tot to myself....hw life hav been so unfair to mi.....everything jus doesnt seem to work out 4 mi.....everything......cos of my failure in napfa....i nd to go thru 4 freakin wks of PTP...im pes A summore....surely will get tortured more....freakin hell lor......nw jus havin the tot of bein stuck 4 4 mths n havin to find a job instead of goin in quickly to finish tt 2 yrs is killin mi....jus havin tt tot made mi realised i shldnt even go out today.....to b mocked @....to exhaust myself....cos i hav been goin out everyday since tuesday....so nw im realli exhausted....

sum1 did tell mi one thing.....tt is to b happy in life....n b optimistic bout it.....but aft i received tt letter....it jus seems like an execution tt is bein delayed....argh....

havin been eating well or talking much to the ppl ard mi....mayb cos im driftin to these stupid tots....kp tellin myself to snap out of it.....but jus cant seem to....where hav all the enthusiasm of mi wantin to go army go? is it cos i gt the undesired pes A? or cos i failed my napfa nt once....but twice....n cos mi 3 mths penalty? or cos i gt posted in sept....havin to wait a long time b4 i go in....n a long time b4 i ORD? i dunno....mind is in a whirl nw....

i know u r tryin to let mi c the brighter side of things.....by all those things u told mi....n im tryin very hard nt to tink of it.....but jus sumhw....my frens....sometimes myself....will jus triggered it.....n cos mi to go into tis.....depressing....state...i can realli feel ur effort to try to snap mi out of tis....n i''ll try nt to tink of it so often....n c things in a more positive manner....thanks for everything....realli appreciate it =)

its been a while since i last blogged.....many things hav happen these past i dunno wat time....ppl receiving enlistment letter....which i haven....meeting up wif frens....slacking.....watching 星光大道....a lotta stuffs....shall talk bout yest n today.....

yest went out wif the same bunch of ppl as today.....mi yanlong shihui baoyun yucheng n jianwei who joined us today 4 the movie....b4 tt...yest was B n J's free cone day.....tt means free ice cream.....wheeee....went to united sq....queue was alreadi formin.....but we did managed to get b4 more ppl came.....den we shopped ard n had our lunch b4 we head down to bugis....n walked to city hall b4 shihui had to leave for tuition n baoyun to meet his fren.....so i left too...4 home....=D

today was out the whole day.....met @ tampines to buy the tixs 4 the 8.30pm 'iron man' movie....den went to ikea courts n giant to walk to kill time.....den we accompany shihui to bedok reservoir where she had her tuition n the others chit chatted.....aft tt went back to tampines to catch 'iron man'....kinda nice....its the kind of thing u expect frm a blockbuster movie....tho the script is kinda repeat in a way....but the gadgets sure r cool....aft tt went to hav pastamania for 'dinner' b4 we went home.....mi kinda nd to pass by geylang on my way home....bz in way....traffic congested....a lotta ppl.....prob cos as im typin....its labour day today....shivers....

had a chat wif u jus nw....had a lotta things gg thru my mind in the aftnn but i onli had to courage to say it jus nw....it was a lotta 1st times for mi....aft tt conversation.....u made mi realised the mistakes i made in the past.....but in a way kinda made mi felt relieved....sumhw aft tt a heavy boulder in my heart jus sank.....the pressure is realli off of mi...the kinda feelin i nv felt b4......but nw kp tinking of the picture.....tt moment in time tt seems to stop....it is realli in a way.....heartfelted.....when i chat wif u....even tho its short.....u made mi more.....extrovert by sharin those conversations....some of which i dun even know i had till u triggered it.....for tt....n 4 all those time.....i realli wanna thank u....its been realli great knowing u n im hopin to chat or cya soon....