haiz.....a yr has past since i been into SP.....n i mus say.....its been a bad yr 4 mi....y i say tt? shall bring u thru.....

i rmb the time when i came into SP all psyched up n ready 4 the yrs ahead....during the FO....saw nasir n cindy became papa n mama...n den the time i knew....i wanted to b a GL....to b able to lead n INTERACT wif the freshies....well....4 mths hav passed n its the end of a sem....thru tt sem i met a lotta frens....the downfall acty began when i'm @ the 2nd sem....dunno wat happen.....things jus went bad....frm bein the lowest in class 4 a few tests...to havin sum ppl changing of attitudes....its jus a sudden burst of events....den the turning pt of my life came @ AD n D....aft the whole event.....i realised.....tt it is hard being single....wif all the couples ard u....be it new or old....n its durin tis time where ppl tend to observe u n picked out ur weak pts....

den i wanna talked bout the fo n day tour meeting.... n wat do u no....i wasnt the GL....for both events.....n honestly....c-ing the GLs cum together to interact makes mi feel.....inferior.... jus like when i'm wif frens....they gt their own cliques to interact wif....n they made mi feel alone....which is the truth la....cos i realised tt i dun realli hav 'true' frens ard....sum1 who will b there when im reali down...n mi bein able to safely tell sum1 sumthin....without the fear of spreading.....

so im nw writing tis blog.....being a SAD (single n desperate)..... a person who is desperately AA (attract attn).... n alone.....wif no frens ard.... trying to improve my grades when im super lousy @ it....n tinking.....whether he shld or shld nt go to club to help out or do anything again....since wat he did....didnt came out wat he expected.... haiz....i guess i realli nd sum counselling or sumthing.....nw i dun realli lking fwrd to FO or day tour....cos it realli hurts mi to c ppl in my status tt im in.....

haiz....jus hope tt 2nd yr will b a better 1 den tis sem.....i realli hope.....