went out yest wif arens siewling n yuting.....n coincidentally saw nasir elaine n audrey.....den they go find tzehao shuting n wilson....wha all like gt meeting time 1 lor...haha....b4 i met them....went bugis play dota....sianz 1....all leave halfway....played 4 bout 3 hrs den go meet them....wha super shopper sia they all.....tts the thing i hate....cos i hate shopping....walk 4 bout an hour seeing things tt i dun c the nd to buy personally n my legs gt tired....haha....wha i wonder wats their secret weapon sia....hmmmm....shop till 730 like tt den went paradiz centre to play pool....gt manu vs chelsea match tt time...sianz chelsea won 3-0 which eventually gt their freaking title 4 the 2nd straight time....haiz....low sia....den went ps to eat den went home wif arens....he seems to b down thruout....hope he's alright....dun b like mi last time...

goin 4 the sentosa outing tml.....haha....cant wait....hope it doesnt rain tho....hmmm....

had been helping out in the MC interview 4 the past 2 days.....talk bout thur....20 ppl went 4 it....started bout 630 n they waited n waited n waited.....until the last person triple h who ended @ bout 930....den went home wif sum of the mc.....

fri....had practical early @ 8....haha....felt like we r the guinea pigs of the machine....1st it nearly overheated cos we can smell the chao ta smell....den the level in the water too high buzzer sounds....sianz....mi grp like kanna panic attack sia....haha...den had break frm 12 to 3....went to find cindy....nd to talk to her...went to audi area to talk....haiz....den later 3 gt lesson....till 5....went 4 the MC interview @ 6....ended early cos onli half of thur...den waited 4 the MCs 4 2 hrs....den went clementi makan n went home....

yay....goin out tml...@ least wont b sianz @ home....go slp liao....long day....
Dude was here....

sianz....dunno wat happen to com.....super lag.....nd to restart bout 3 times.....sianz....hmmm.... today is the CLS recruitment drive....find it quite ok la....overall its a quite relaxed atmosphere.... wif all the seniors n us ard to make them high....haha....den hor....alex yuting alvin wanwei evelyn n yunzhen put up a special performance 4 the ppl....haha.....den our president annabel intro the 27th commitee MCs.....namely.....

Annabel - President
Wei Kang - Vice-President
Hui Zhen - Secretary
Siew Ling - Treasurer
Jia Yi - Quarter Master
Alven - Sports
Wan Wei - PR
Doreen - Welfare
Choon Long - Social

I guess tts all bah.....hope im nt missin out anybody....haha....den its the registration....saw quite a lotta ppl chose to b MC leh....nt veri sure....haha.....

den went clubhouse to slack....do quite a bit of stuff....den went home wif arens n fiona.....

jus when i wanna say i goin 4 poly 50 tml....yoshi msged in saying nd help to interact wif the freshies b4 their mc interview....haiz....nw in dilemma....haha....

sianz....jus nw try to put an entry cant.....den fell aslp @ 10 n woke up @ tis time to try again....

yest was bad....slpt @ 130 but onli manage to officially slp @ 330 cos i kanna distracted by the slightest light n sound haha.....had a flu tt morning....terrible....thanx joan 4 the medicine....its work la thru out the day....but nw i tink the flu is back again lor...haha.....nevertheless....thru out the whole 8-6 lesson....im kinda awake....dunno y... haha....den aft sch went clubhouse a while.... slack a bit den went home wif sum ppl....sat on the train immediately zZz....but lucky nv overslpt haha.....

will b helping out in the promotion of the drive tml....hope many ppl can turn up 4 it....n hope CLS club wld b much better den last yr....*fingers crossed*

found tis in jingen's blog.....tot i might wanna giv it a try.....

Name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl. Okay, tag at least 5 people! Ready? Start!
1. Seow Hong
2. Arens
3. Hui Zhen
4. Audrey
5. Yoshika
6. Joan
7. Annabel
8. Peggy
9. Choon Long
10. Alex
11. Wan Wei
12. Peter
13. Cindy
14. Elaine
15. Jing En
16. Kenneth
17. Kevin
18. Triple H
19. Sharlene
20. Andy
1. How did you meet 14?
Thru post FO camp....cos during FO.....nv realli no freshies tt well.....

2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
i wld die?haha.....cos he's my buddy n bro man....haha....

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
!!!!.....i tink it wld b ok 4 choon long bah....lol....andy leh....nt veri sure....

4. Did you ever like 19?
hmmm.....nv....

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
lol i couldnt imagine them bein put together....cos i tink it wld b a recipe 4 disaster...4 kevin i guess haha....

6. Describe 3.
veri nice girl.....a veri nice fren to hav....glad to hav her to walk in my life....

7.Do u think 8 is attractive?
hmmm....ok lor....quite a magnet 4 sum ppl i guess.....haha....

8.Tell me something about 7.
veri gd listener....can ctrl her emotions veri well....overall....gd lor haha....

9.Do you know any of 12's family?
Nope.

10.What's 8's favourite?
hmmm....i dunno....

11.what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
wat?! u gt to b kiddin....

12.what language does 15 speak?
English and chinese. (^^)v + cantonese...

13.Who is 9 going out with?
ermmmm.....currently he like ji hong-ing ard leh....haha....

14.how old is 16 now?
17 years old.

15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
hmmm.....yest i guess....

16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
hmmm....i dunno....he listen all kinds of music....no preference....

17.would u ever date 4?
lol.....i can consider....haha....

18.would u ever date 7?
haha cant shes attached.....haha....

19.Is 15 single?
Yup....but i dun tink she is lor....haha.....

20.What is 10's last name?
Hao.....tho he isnt tt hao (good) la....whahahaha.....jokin....

Would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
tt is a hard decision but most prob no.....best fren still can la....aft all....she dun go 4 anybody lower den her age.....haha.....

22.What school does 3 go to?
Singapore Poly! School of CLS! (:

23.Where does 6 live?
hmmm....nt sure but i no its sumwhere @ ang mo kio....

24.What's your fav thing about 5?
her smile n her voice?so soft la....haha....juicy....haha....

25.Have u seen number 1 naked?
!

now to tag 5 people
peggy cindy hui zhen audrey n alex....regular bloggers in the list....sum i wan to la....but they dun hav blog....haha......

well....those tt i nv mention in the 20.....nt say i dun wanna list u....is cos its wat came to my mind 1st......n oh btw....the ppl i chosen is nt in any particular order......haha....

off to slp liao....tml mus @ least do sum hw....haha......

today's programme is kinda short.....had a boring maths lesson in the morn.....den slack to play soccer wif my class mates cos tutorial cancelled....den went 4 lecture on environmental engineering...den dismissed....

went to clubhouse....saw cindy....went to fc5 to talk to her....we shared a lotta stuff....den she told mi wanna c wats beyond the pool so i brought her.....den along the way we walk n talk....sure had fun....thanks alot.....den waited 4 the poly 50 training to start....went running ard the SP sch border.....nice....den training above sports hall....si bei tiring....wha all those tt require ur leg to b strong 1.....up ah.....reached home bout 1130.....

tml super slack.....aft prac briefing n lav.....can go home liao....haha.....but i decide to go play Dota....haha...mus hav fun......yay.....

hmmm....3rd entry in a day.....haha....nt bad seh....ermmm....so sianz today pd n s....machiam slackin using the com....nv realli listen to the class.....den aft tt fluid mechan n lav....den rush to mlt8 4 gems....the lecturer is funni....but the lesson is BORING.....i mean totally....half of the time is spent on listening to all his jokes....lol.....den went back to sac.....mi wanwei n doreen went 4 the interview 4 the cambodia trip....waited bout half an hour b4 they interview us....in the end out of the 12...4 were selected....n wanwei was 1 of them.....weee.....feel so gd 4 her.....guess she can share the exp when she return back frm the overseas ITP.....as 4 mi.....i'll jus hav to wait again 4 the 1st plane flight.....

everythin ard mi seems to change so quickly.....within a span of a wk....i saw a few new couples of the ppl tt i no of....i dunno whether i shld b envy....or feel blissful 4 them.....as 4 the cooldown....seems like over.....but doesnt feel like it.....haven been talking much since.....its seems our topics r few n far btw....unlike the past.....tts wat i hate bout it....but im trying to keep my confidence lvl up....n gave up bout it.....still trying....haiz.....if onli i can nw try to turn back time....all tis thing wouldnt hav had happen.....

found tis in ouyang's blog....so i might wanna give it a try....

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully. You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

haha.....found bout 95% of it true....realli described mi of who i am....hope thru tis....i can ud ppl better n vice versa....haha.....

oh 4got to mention......changed my blog video liao...seen already....quite nice la....more 4 the song den the video.....haha.....enjoy.....

wheee....slackin @ the lib until 3....sianz....acty nw can go home liao....but hor tt mr cheah sim moh.....wan to hav chem reaction engineering....so ji tao hav to wait until 3 den hav lecture until 5....zZz....

welll off i go nw....hope it wont b tt bad today....cos yest was awful....

wha.....1st day of sch.....c like so many ppl like tt....all cramp in sum area....today ji tao sianz...8 to 6 den all the lessons r module overview.....so hav a lotta breaks in btw.....most of the lecturers r ok la.....i sae most is cos the last lesson.....thermodynamics....wha si bei sianz.....lecturer phua siew teng 1st thing tell us....many failures cos of tis module....den we all c the chapters....wha more peng ah....den she tell us bout the itp....more low sia....nw i can ud cindy peilin engtat edward they all go thru liao lor....so sianz....hav to wake up early den go jurong island....wha....

haiz....cooldown time is more like a cold turkey 4 mi.....nobody to talk to.....dun wanna irritate any1 anymore....guess i still hav to wait 4 another few days or weeks to bein able to break out of the shell.....time will tell.....

went out wif elaine jingen kenneth puihan yuting n ames jus nw....went to the nw foodcourt @ wisma 4th floor....4got the name liao....wha....super ex la....wanton mee 6.50.....low liao....den went shop shop n chit chat wif them....they all went heeren they bought sum stuff.....cant rmb wat they bought....den ames n i decided to la them to cine to e2max....haha....cos there they playin dota....haha....they all sianz diao....den we went coffee bean @ taka while jingen n yuting went kinokuniya....slack n chitchat wif them...den went yoshinoya to eat....jus bout to go home...arens called....so while the rest went home....i went out wif him n slack ard.....talked a lotta stuffs....bout the recent things tt i've been thru....learnt a lot....den bout 830 went home....

*sighs* feelin much better den tis morn....mayb wat they say were right.....tt i lack the confidence n mi bein oversensitive....realli wanna them 4 tellin mi.....i believe tt everybody changes....be it minor or big.....its jus a matter of time....4 mi....i guess i hav to change....i nd to hav the confidence.....bout myself....n my dressing....my style....n stop denying others bout their comments....n everything shld let nature take its path....mayb den....i'll b a more happi n more carefree person den i am nw....

woke up tis morning....all aches n pains....aches frm my back....pains frm my heart....try to tell myself tt everything will b alright.....but nth seems to worked out 4 mi....i dunno when all tis started but it sure doesnt feel rite 4 mi....will b gg out later....@ least i try to relief myself frm alll the torment....jus trying....

came upon tis song tt cindy had put once in her blog....tot its nice n reflected of wat im in nw....

back....almost 4got to entry tis post....

hav been doin self-reflection 4 the past yr.....realised of all the things tt i hav done....those tt i benefit or bein benefitted.....n of course those tt i offended.... tis past yr seems like a long 1 4 mi....wif so many events tt came up....realise tt they all hav 1 thing in common......it brought the best n the worst in mi.....but u can sae more of a worst side of mi.....n i 4 once.....nv realise until sum1 or any1 tell mi straight bout it.....to those ppl who told my flaws.....i shld ty acty.....4 acty makin mi realise the things tt i've done...all the sins....haiz....cum to tink of it....realli make mi feel ashamed of it....

nw tinking of sum ways in which myself can atone 4 my sins.....bein 4given 4 wat i hav done....(jus to clarify....im nt a christian).....finally to all those tt i hav offended....im realli realli srry....4 nw...i hav realise my penitence....n will atone 4 it....4 sure....

jus came back frm the retreat....haiz so tired....yet i realli nd to enter tis entry....

went to jb sofitel hotel 4 the retreat.....on our way there....discussing ways to improve CLS club....aft tt we had lunch....the food was yum yum....den had the discussion....thereafter the yr 2 went ard the resort n walk walk...aft tt went dinner n makan....den all of us go to wanwei's room to play games....wha lao.....i c liao low liao lor....haha...but i dunno....sumhw aft tt pt....everything starts to change 4 mi.....

dere aft.....everything doesnt seem to interest mi....so when they sae they wanted to go to the bar....im so happy....@ 1st veri slack n quiet....den aft sum time we all go along the music den started to sing.....den started to dance.....den started to get high.....haha....had loads of fun....den all went to wanwei's room again to chit chat....till 5+ in the morning.....

had breakfast @ 9 den slack till 12 to go to a shopping mall in JB....tho its big.....but nt realli tt nice to shop....mayb cos most stuff r expensive n its nt the kinda thing we expected.....shop till ard 330 den came back to spore @ ard 5+.....they all suggested to go to clementi to eat n slack...but 4 sum reasons....i didnt wan to join them.....till nw...im tryin to ask myself y....

haiz....came into tis retreat so excited.....came out of tis retreat down n out....dunno wats happening to mi.....its seem to b a problem tt is always happening to mi but i didnt daunt on it.....nw i tink i had enough.....cant take it anymore....i nd a break frm everything....but sch starting soon....haiz....i jus realli nd sum1 to talk to....sum1 who can listen to all my woes tt im been thru nw....

back frm the mass celebration....but aftnn was anything but fun....super slack.....arens n i basically rot 4 4 hrs b4 the yr 1 arrives....den they were preparing all those stuff which i dun realli no wat is it until i reached fc 5 area....they were preparing a game stn 4 the 4 bday boys....dim alvin wayne n alex....i mus say....the stn tho no kick to them.....but nevetheless fun la...esp watching them.....oops.....den aft tt....slack wif sum ppl b4 go cele bday n eat cake @ fc 5 den aft tt take pics go home liao....

off to jb tml....wont b back till saturday....cant wait....hehehe....

had the mass outing today....but b4 tt went out wif my fren to bugis.....aft tt meet up wif GMs to makan.....movie watch ice age 2....dam funny...tho the movie is short....aft tt went wif bei bei n karze grp to ps.....stun dim n siewling....today....oops i mean yest.....was dim's bday....eat ice cream cake outside ps....haha....den bua his face wif the cake.....high ah....aft tt went to play pool until bout 0030 den went home in taxi....

haiz....i dunno....every blog i go it says CLS rox.....mi myself i no.....but my heart sumhw doesnt feel tt way....sumhw so.....empty....dunno hw to express it in words....mayb cos of the recent events tt happen....n the past tt daunted mi these few weeks....

i guess i shldnt wrry tt much aft all...nxt event will b the meeting 4 the retreat n the nxt outing on thur....

shall go zZz liao....had a long day....nd sum rest....

today is day tour....suppose to start @ 9 n i meeting the medics @ 830.....but sianz.....woke up late @ ard 855 wha high ah.....rush there by taxi....but acty reach there.....oso a bit eng eng cheng cheng la...actual event haven realli started....but im still late la....daunting over it still.... den aft they splitted to their grps n do their stuffs.....we medics r tinking of a cheer....haha....nt bad la.....the cheer sounds nice....but done better haha....we medics r so zai.....haha....den aft lunch it started to pour.....sianz....went to stn aft stn.....but the 1 tink i notice....the grp im attached to....choon long n june....r nt high enough....its onli a period of time they high den suddenly low again.....wha.....can feel the aura of silence sia...haha....den during 2 times....they met 'the devils'.....where they do forfeit to the grps papa n mama....den oso can c the freshies oso low diao lor....quite disappointed la....cos i asked 1 of the freshies y their grp so low....she told mi cos they shy....which i tink nt veri true la....but the main pt is....they r nt high....n quite disappointed in tt....

aft the stn games went to pool to hav mass game....water captain ball...hmmm...guess tts the onli time when they started to get high.....had fun there....aft washing up went to eat....while the freshies collecting their food...we GMs high ourselves....haha....when we eat tt time....oso high....aft tt oso high....so in conclusion.....we high lor....haha...den aft tt pretty much slack ard...den had mass debrief.....den aft tt OC debrief....realise a lotta much stuffs tt i dont no bout....aft tt went to dover mrt stn....lucky lucky manage to catch the last train.....if nt hav to midnight taxi liao....haha...

den when i gt home....my whole family like in a state of shock or sumthing.....the aura is realli realli low....den i realised tt sumthing happened.....but nt convienient to say here....cos the matter is quite serious.....jus hope tt it will be done as soon as possible....i dunno....but i feel like i cant stay @ home tml....the feeling is realli eerie n scary nw......

haven been updating 4 a while.....the past 4 days hav been @ sch or @ labrador adventure centre 4 the CLS FO camp 06/07.....heres the lowdown on wat happen.....

Day 1:
our prep camp.....acty i can sae is slack day la...wat we do r jus preparin the 1st aid kit n i can say tts all bah....realli nth much....den annabel told us tt we interact wif the other ppl but we medics hah.....hmmm.....basically slack lor....so we in the end settle down wif logistics ppl play games lor....haha....but the sianz part is during the slping time....realli had trouble slping....keep tossing n turning....n the sac area is so freakin cold.....n summore the rm is so noisy n siangwee bside mi kp snoring :x....so in the end i onli managed to slp 4 bout 2 hrs onli....haha.....

Day 2:
the start of the actual camp!oooh.....so excited to c the freshies....had sum ice breakin games wif the GLs n freshies....aft tt went to campsite to hav a telematch....haha.....our stn quite interesting.....but veri hard to explain nw....aft the telematch....went to clarke quay to get ready 4 the mass billibanja.....sianz.....had a lotta delays n false alarm....den when they all do the billibanja....kinda confusing n mixed up....but kinda can make it la....haha....aft tt went to the 1st stn under the esplanade bridge....kinda exhausted.....n the stn GM there sae my face is kinda pale....dunno y they sae tt....but i no i am tired....n fainting soon....but im still awake.....haha.....mayb cos of the fact tt i nd to carry a big medic box ard....*tinking of excuses*.......den went to the 2nd stn @ marina sq....saw weixin there.....haha her forfeit 4 the freshies r funny....its a mix of iGallop n uZap.....whahaha.....den aft tt i low diao liao....mayb cos my stamina is low....den carrying the kit is like paramount 4 mi....den jus lie down when i reached the last stn....aft tt went back to had the mass debrief.....had a lotta problems wif the commitee i can c...oso a lotta things do cocked up....n a lotta stuffs r mainly 4 GMs.....so we medics a bit sian......den they all decided to go to labrador park to reckee 4 the nite activity the nxt day....but i tt time too tired liao so decided to go zZz.....

Day 3:
woke up early....1st time tt i took less den 5 mins 4 mi to slp....haha....had breakfast den 4 us medics is slack time....so we chit chatted amongst ourselves....until lunch lor....den aft tt is the wet games.....whahaha....had a lotta fun wif my stn ppl.....den aft tt they had tis game called battle royal.....where the grps hav to gather weapons in order to 'attack' other grps....the grp tts the dirtiest gets to bathe 1st....den we medics all sian.....waited bout an hour b4 the war begins....den when it ended....the whole field n the surrounding area totally stinks.....pooh......had to hold quite a breath 4 tt.....had campfire tt nite....didnt realli join in tho....tot of goin to c wat tis yrs shim lk like.....i mus say....they like to use balloons as their cup size.....lol....den i saw mr....oops....i mean miss barbie peter......wha....stun dio.....way better den last yr FO.....more...ermmm...shim la.....haha....den he LJ wif issac n we all like.....*shivers*.....aft the campfire we all set off to labrador park 4 the nite activity.....had trouble communicating wif the ppl.....alwaes nt listening......den the band color (which is black) they had to find is even more difficult to find....den the nanny gt frustrated which i tink is oso gettin to the freshies....den all the morale start to go down....in the end our grp gt the highest no. of rings....but onli cos the seniors gave sum to dem....haha.....

Day 4:
last day!!!jus had breakfast den the ppl r ready 4 the captain's ball match.....we the foo medgistics....(dunno hw to spell la....but basically its the combination of food medic n logistics ppl together) decided to form a team to play la....but in the end we ermmm....u no....haha....den the climax of tis game i tink is the match btw GLs n GMs.....veri hiong i can say....expected sum injuries n it did...gt a bit of tension in the air....but kinda alright aft tt.....went back to sch 4 a final debrief....den take sum photos n sum of us went to clementi to eat....den aft tt i went home....kinda overslept on the MRT.....overshot my stop by 2 stns.....sianz.....

wha.....wat a long entry....phew....go upload pics frm the camp liao.....any1 of u wan the pics can contact mi lor....*yawns*.....go zZz liao....haven had much slp....nites......zZz....