tis entry's gonna b a long 1...so if u can bear wif it.....read on.....

i'll start wif sat night....went to watch soccer wif dad @ kopi shop....haha....super enthu sia all those uncle...everytime goal oso excited....haha....

sunday....went out wif family to cele mother's day....haven realli had a meal together as a family 4 quite a while alreadi....all so bz wif their own stuff....but nevertheless....it was nice....

den today....so tired....nv realli concentrating....mayb cos of wat happen yest.....when i wrote tis entry in my 'diary'....supposedly an entry tt i wanna key in yest but sis usin com...so hav to delay till nw....tis is wat i wrote....

'saw her blog today....happen to saw a reply frm her fren sayin 'what matters the most is how well you live, how well you you forgive and how well you LEARN TO LET GO.' haiz....tinkin bout it....n makin a self-reflection on my own....i guess she's right.....i mus learn to take it in stride....learn when to let it go.....but its veri hard 4 mi.....

4 the past few wks....i hav been wantin to c her so desperately....cumin to tink of it....mayb i AM desperate....but cant anybody c it in another way.....nt tt i am desperate....but jus needed sum1 tt i can REALLI talk to....n share my woes wif.....i no myself.....tt @ sumtime....i am irritatin n oversensitive...but y cant anybody accept mi 4 who i am? I c every1 ard mi....accepting their flaws of the other person....but y nt mi? am i realli the kinda person tt ppl will try to shove off? isnt there any1 out there who can accept mi 4 who i am? Oh well....mayb i guess i hav to let Fate decide my destiny bahs.....'

c-ing tis entry 4 the 2nd time realli makes mi ud who i realli am....n hw im presented to every1 ard mi....ppl may grew to like mi 4 who i am...but i guess mos of the time they wld b otherwise... mayb tts y i am alone mos of the time....even tho im wif a bunch of frens....i can still rmb tt i came into a poly.....wantin to find a new life.....nv did i expect tt everythin frm sec sch life came rushing back to mi....hw can i ever get out of tis cycle? will tis ever end.....i sure hope it does....BUT ONLI TIME WILL TELL......