im back....suddenly hav tis tot of blogging my tots down....

tis sem realli changed mi.....its onli 4 6 wks nw....but so much has happened....

1st of all...im getting more n more.....lazy in a sense....jus cant seem to wake up @ the rite time...4 the rite moment summore....jus like wat happened last thur.... still cant seem to 4get tt event.....

2nd....tho im getting more hardworking (tt i hav to admit....cos its realli nt true if u apply to last few sems...)...but i feel tt....sum things i jus cant seem to process as fast as my clsmates....n tts y a lotta things they do i dun get....but im afraid to ask...cos im afraid to get scolded....by my peers summore....

3rd....my memory....argh....deterioriate until like dunno wat....simple things tt i suppose to rmb i oso cant....realli cost my team mates alot due to tis....

4th....clubhouse make mi realise....tt i realli am nt wat i am....i always tot....go there to c frens is a gd thing...but nw...aft a few wks of absence in club....it makes mi realise...everything changed....
the club seems to b much....... happening place without mi ard...wats more....the ppl i interact wif....isnt as happi as they r interacting wif others...n i can sense tt...mayb its better off on my own aft all...

finally....realised i dun realli hav 'frens' ard....all (shld i sae most...) of the ppl i no r.....superficial.... its jus a greeting n nv talked any further....when i realli wanna do tt....jus dunno hw to continue...whether u agree or nt....its up to u to decide....im jus saying my tots....

to all those ppl tt i no who r reading tis blog ( which i guess isnt much ppl...)...i cant realli change ur tots on hw u tink....cos honestly nw...i dun realli care....but tis is hw i feel....whether u like it or nt....i no i can b a better man den i am nw....but 4 mi to do tt....i nd all of ur approvals of mi....of who i am....n nt judge mi by my character....cos it is wat i cant change....

guess 4 nw....i onli hav 1 'real' true fren tt i can rely on....MUSIC.....