haiz...today is horrid....late for practical....woke up late...9 o clock lesson den 845 woke up....rush like mad....sianz....shldnt hav taken tt stupid taxi....cost me $17 sia....wtf....swear i'll nv take taxi again....cost me whole loads of bombs....den arrived @ 920....of course....nt onli tio meh by tchr...but oso cost the whole team the practical.....punctuality mark reduced by half all cos of mi...tts rite...MI!!....felt so bad 4 the whole day...nv realli tot of the practical or the lessons....my mind kp drifting to the report....hw much pts i hav cost them due to my....laziness....

tis whole thing makes mi feel so....traumatised...jus kp blaming myself....dunno y....feeling extremely tired these days....wanted to slp....but kp oversleeping....hw ironic....the 1st song tt i hear aft tt incident is....'bad day'....lol...thanx gerard...urs words r dam true....

nw....mayb i can officially sae tt...i AM useless? haiz....jus wanna throw all these things tt is goin on in my life away....but sumhw cant....everytime i try to b happy....i kp thinking bout the scoresheet....hw i 'helped' the team to cut the score into half thanx to mi....

jus wanna go sumwhere....sumwhere away frm all these....crap....haiz....