Oh SiMpLe ThIng....wHeRe Hav U GoNe.....

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

cant slp tonight....something jus happened.....havin restless nights 4 the past few days...dun will b able to tonight....so might as well blogged bout it....if u r reading tis post....im nt blamin u.....its nt ur fault anyway....mayb its jus my mind...

been veri depressed @ myself aft the conversation....esp the last msg....cos i didnt know hw to react initially...my heart came to accept tt....but somehw my mind cant....its jus tt i didnt expect tt last tuesday was the last time i wld saw u.....aft tt i hav to wait 4 a mth....tt day kp detesting myself tinking tt its my fault to c u bein down....i onli felt better aft ur clarification wif mi the day aft....

nw my whole feeling of typing tis entry is so....moody....jus tinking bout the fact tt it will onli b a mth later when i can c u kills mi....within tis period of time i realli duno wat to do.....slacking......but realli doin absolutely blank......job....but still havin tt fear....tt fear in which i cant explain....mayb tts the reason y i screwed the job interview.....there is tis fear inside mi tellin mi all bout my insecurities.....n it showed during the interview....

haiz...my mind is in a blurred state nw....1 mth is realli depressing.....n jus when i was lookin 4ward to sat.....den tt sentence....feel so wrecked nw....shall nt mention the details here....had tt conversation aft....but its tt last sentence tt killed mi.....

im hoping i wont hav another sleepless nights.....but im guessing tis nite wld b another 1.....

tired....mentally...n emotionally.....

Somewhere Only We Know....
1:21 am